Lil Nas X was “scared” to come out gay.
Hitmaker ‘Old Town Road’ came out in June 2019 and has now admitted that he was afraid to tell the world he was gay but knew he had to “join in” [his] Truth ”for all other young people like him.
He said, “I was scared because I knew the world was watching and all I have ever seen for boys like me was judgment and ridicule, but because the world was watching, I knew I was standing in my truth had to.”
And Nas X – real name Montero Hill – is hoping society will reach a point where it is “no longer groundbreaking” for LGBTQ artists to be successful.
When honored at the Native Son Awards, he said, “Some people say I’m pushing an agenda, and so am I. It’s called liberation. There is no roadmap if you are the first to break a barrier, and I hope that one day it is no longer groundbreaking for queer artists to find mainstream success…. There is still a lot to be done until that day and I will continue to do my part. “
Meanwhile, the 22-year-old rapper recently insisted it wasn’t [his] Job ”to be a good role model.
He said, “At first I felt responsible. But now I kind of don’t care. It’s not my job. Of course I want to spread good ideals, but I’m not anyone’s parents. At the end of that day, I’m just making myself and hope that everyone else will follow the lead and do themselves.
“Part of my plan is to make sure people know that I’ll do whatever I want, when I want, and if you’re mad about it I’ll laugh in your face.”
Nas X recently released his latest single, “Montero” (Call Me By Your Name), and accompanied it with a note to his 14-year-old self thinking about coming out gay two years ago.
And now the musician says that he initially feared that he would have to be “straight passing” if he wanted to continue his career.
He explained: “[I thought that I wouldn’t be] may be really sensual or something … like, I’m gay, but I’m not ‘gay’ … like, I’m gay, but I have to make sure that you feel like I can just come over. “