Mary J. Blige: My followers saved me from suicide | Leisure

Mary J. Blige credits her fans for keeping them from suicidal thoughts.

The 50-year-old musician has admitted that she considered suicide early in her professional career, but ultimately decided to seek help because she knew she had fans who counted on her.

She said, “I think subconsciously, I was like, ‘Oh, I can’t kill myself now. All these people, someone is going to get behind me’ because people were too persistent and strong and emotional about this album. So believe I So In my subconscious I thought: “I can’t” [die] now. I just have to go through this. I have to assert myself. ‘ And so I just kept pushing, no matter how hard it got, no matter how ugly it got. “

The ‘Family Affair’ hitmaker has been concerned with her mental health for over two decades, and while it’s an ongoing process, Mary says she is in a much better place than before.

She added to People magazine, “It’s not as bad as it was, I’m in a great place. But I have to fight for my freedom and happiness every day because that was a tough captivity, you know?”

Meanwhile, in December, Mary spoke about the pain she faced after her divorce in 2016 from Kendu Isaacs, who she was married to for 13 years.

She said, “I just have to go through this until something excellent comes up. I don’t know when that will happen. But I’d rather be myself than make the same mistakes over and over again. I’m going to be patient and see this thing and love me now. “

And Mary previously talked about how music saved her life as well.

She said, “Music was a vessel that God used to save my life. If I didn’t have music … I probably wouldn’t be here.

“So many things have happened… My mother struggled to raise us as a single mother.

“My father was away as a little kid and made us fight in a terrible place. I love him and respect him now, but I was angry about it for years.”